Well.. if you look at it in days... it's only 86 more days of me being 27... then i'll be 28!!! Honestly.. since the time I turned 21... till now... I have no idea where all that time went... and what have I got to say about myself after all these years... let's go down memory lane... (if my memory serves right)
The Wonder Years... (7 to 12)
we'll skip the years before Primary School... coz yawn yawn... just the growing up stages... now.. the years of 7 to 12... Pri 1 to Pri 6.. are very important... but then again in a girl's school... how important could they be? All I can say is.. thanks to my family background (wah very Mafia like huh?) but seriously.. I was pretty much a good kid.. except that I was failing Chinese.. so what's new?! haha.. yet.. despite that.. i did ok for the PSLE.. but got into Normal stream.. gone are the days of easy streaming.. now it starts from as early as Pri 3 i think? or has that changed yet again????
The Tween Years... (13 to 17)
Ahhh... adolescence.. sweet & innocent.. NOT! when ur in an All Girl's School... but thankfully not in the dark blue uniform one... hehehe.. shall i say?? Yeah.. i will luckily i'm not a KC girl... (i'm soo gonna get slammed someday haha) but hey.. the animosity has always been there.. between convent girls and the same for the all boys schools.. :) Now in the tween years... I had the luck to be with the coolest bunch of class mates... we were a motley crew... butches/passives/lians/meenas/gerago (me only) but hey... multi-racial... it was much better from Sec 3 onwards.. coz that's the bunch of mates u stick with till graduation.. and when ur in Sec 4 or 5.. hell.. ur a SENIOR!!! And that was the best!
One really funny thing.. is how... after I left school.. and I swear.. i wasn't notorious.. (though I hung out with the lot) a lot of juniors I happen to bump into... know me.. BY NAME!!! Aiyo! How could this happen to me? hehe
Pre 20s (18 - 20)
Ahhh.. these were interesting times... thanks to French classes back in Sec... i got to meet BOYS!! haha... wah lau... such a nerd huh? Nah... I had Cathechism classes.. so I got to meet boys way back then... I think i remember my first crush.. in kindy class.. (gatal aren't i?) but anyways.. back to the point.. I didn't do so well for the Os.. so I went into ITE for a bit.. Secretarial cours.. picked up the typing.. screw the shorthand.. and left after 5mths.. not my gig.. wanted to work.. earn my way.. be independent... so.. i worked my buns off.. contract job here.. temp there... and for a short while... worked in retail.. HMV to be exact.. with my then boyfriend. That was interesting... coz it was music... but the dept i was in.. was classical.. thanks to my music background... but hey.. overall it was FUN!... I only left coz I got sponsored for a Diploma at Thames... doing Mktg & PR...and I guess.. since then... i've pretty much been laying the bricks to where I am today... (er.. where is that arh? hehe)
Early 20s... (21 - 25)
Ahh... my 21st birthday... all in all in my entire 28 years on this planet... i've celebrated 4 birthdays away from home.. 15th in Reunion.. 18th in Perth, 21st in Chicago & 25th in Cambodia. Think I'll have my 30th somewhere far away as well... hahaha.. during these years.. i made a lot of mistakes... took a lot of wrong turns.. and ended up well.. pretty much screwing myself up financially... and I'm still trying to make things right... it's easy to spend it all and hard to get it all back... but there's nothing like trying... and it's how much u want it back that'll push u to try even harder... and make it succeed...
In these years.. I had a good jobs.. and bad jobs.. met all sorts of characters... in terms of work.. and in terms of socially.. well.. the same... i could write a book about my love life.. hahah.. but then again.. who'd read it? hahaha.. no best-seller there.. These are the days of my trials & tribulations... (so DOOL... read = days of our lives)
Late 20s... (26 - 28.. and beyond)
Oh god.. i've reached the term of 'late 20s'... u noe where in questionnaires or forms u have to fill for certain things.. they ask ur age... no more can i tick 21 - 25... dammit.. i'm in the 25 - 29 box now... oh well.. suck it in and hold ur head high they say... at least.. looks wise.. i dun look a day over 22.. heheheh so i've been told.. (or wish!) What has happened in these past few years.. a lot.. a lot... decided to do the entrepreneur thing.. i've always had that streak in me.. just bogged down with family issues.. i'm the risk taker... on this side of the family.. that worries my family though... When I'm passionate about something.. I tend to get emotional... because I put my heart n soul in it.. and I hate to quit unless I absolutely have to.. I have cut my losses and moved on before.. it's all about weighing the situation... as my elders say.. 'who's tasted salt first?' well true in some aspects.. and not true in others.. the world's changing.. and u've gotta change with it.. luckily.. my family is a mixture of both.. conservative.. and risk-takers.. or at least they try to understand...
I've made a lot more friends in the past years.. yet I've lost dear friends too... again.. mistakes made.. wrong things said.. but life goes on... 2 key family pillars in my life left me too... and 1 very close friend too... it's easy to say move on.. but in reality.. it's not... things appear ok on the surface.. but there are times.. I pass by a place, or I hear a song, or see something.. that reminds me...
I wonder.. in the recent months.. or year.. have I changed.. in my perception, in my thoughts, in a lot of things? I'm very cynical where love is concerned, yet romantic too. I'm practical, analytical & calculative where work's concerned, yet pessismistic & unsure sometimes.
Right now.. the song.. I think that relates to things going on in my life.. is the Simple Plan one 'Untitled'... not entirely... but somewhat... and i'm listening to it now...
Somedays.. I catch myself wondering what if.. 1year+ ago.. I had replied to his message.. and had been in that car... I wouldn't be writing this now...
All things happen for a reason... like most things happening this year... it's been an interesting one.. and I hope it ends well..
I blogged this on my msn site..
'it is not the ways of the world that are mysterious, but the ways of man that are...
Don't you think?
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