dazed & confuzed

yupz.. it happens to the best of us.. and hell... it had to happen to me too lah.. haha
y am i dazed n confuzed... over a lot of things..
the week's been one crazy week... mood swings galore... up & down and well.. still gotta put on that brave front...
Christmas is coming.. and sadly.. don't think i'll be celebrating much... maybe by meself... keke
but anyways... sometimes i wonder if i've really changed or grown... older & wiser or have i just become a prude! Hmmm.. admitedly.. i'm no innocent nor an angel.. but wild days were back then.. now... i just want simplicity...
Simplicity is not that simple though... as i learn each day...
Somethings are so near.. yet so far away...
Sometimes I want to take that chance.. yet I pull back
So I try to go with the flow but I wonder if that'll take too long and I'll actually miss the boat...
Or have I already missed the boat?
Then, when one door closes.. another opens.. has it recently? well I have no idea..
Everything happens for a reason.. and I speak from experience about that..
Many things in my life.. especially most recently have been that way.. yet still I wonder why?
I used to live my life day to day, one moment to the next...
Now? Well.. I just try to live my life to the fullest and enjoy every bit of it...
Life is an experience, challenging & forever changing.. and...
It's a journey I've been thru for 28 years already and it's not gonna end soon..
As Lao Tzu said "A Journey of a thousand miles, begins with a single STEP."
And that's a step.. I take everyday..
Baby steps.. will get me to what I want.. the career, the man, the dream, the everything....