'I'm Pulling The Plug'... that's all that was said.. and that was that.. no hint that was gonna happen, no further explanation other than that and a few other lines.. but that's it.. just like that.. all that I had been working on the for the past month is OVER!
And i dunno what to do now... my big plan was working on this project.. that was the main reason... followed by doing my jewellery and design stuff.. but this project was supposed to bring in the $$ so i could finance the other 2... in the coming months...
And now.. the plug's been pulled... no explanation to me as to whether i'm still needed or not... no $$ no idea what the hell is going on... and i thought that at least there'd be meeting to tell me why this was decided.. but NOOOOOO.. nothing.. nada... zip... not a sound! I mean hey.. it's ur decision.. but do I have to be the one calling & calling to find out?? Least you could do was see me in person to tell me.. this is what's decided.. this is what's gonna happen.. not bits n pieces in a msg or 2...
And I dun even know what to tell my mother... dun even know what to make of my own thoughts.. was I played for a fool? was I kept out of the loop? what, why, when, where, who?? all these questions and more...
Yet even after blogging this.. i'll still not be able to sleep like in the past couple days..
I can only look to the Big G up there for his guidance.. and pray... jus pray... 'help me to get back on the right path again.. though i've strayed many a time.. get me back on track.. please.. i'm asking for ur guidance... again.. i noe.. i said i won't but I'm sorry.. i'm only human and i need ur guidance.. Big G.. help me please...'
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