Yesterday was shitty... started off fine.. then somehow.. after chatting with one or two frens... something kinda hit me... as Jeff suggested.. I was hit by the 'Blue' Smurf.. haha...
Yah.. dunno.. just got hit by sudden realisation about a lot of things... like where am I in life.. in relationships, in friendships.. what have I accomplished so far.. where the hell am I heading.. what am I doing.. all these life questions just started popping up.
I guess they've always been there.. but just bombarded my poor brain all at one shot at the wrong time...
All I wanted was an outsider's point of view which I got from Tay which cleared up things a bit.. and then after that all I wanted was to sink into a quiet world.. what did i do? I engrossed myself with Jeff's work.. yeah.. I helped them do some 'rolling' for lucky draw coupons... did almost the whole batch.. that's how concentrated I was... until.. my fingers all numb and outta sorts.. but in a way it was stress relief for me...
Had some niggling questions still but the blueeness subsided... i get like that.. down but i jus pick myself up again.. coz there's no way but down if I remain down.. and each day is a brand new day... move on.. learn.. focus.. get back on track...
This little lamb got lost for a bit.. but after a good night's sleep and without dreams... I feel much better.. just gotta roll with the punches
Been doing this thing on my msn... changing my nicks to co-relate with whatever's playing on the radio and also how I'm feeling at that point of time... now it says.. "Loving Each Day!" well... that's just me being me!
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