Should I... Really?

I get my horoscope emailed to me.. both my daily one and the single's love horoscope.. haha dun ask me why... just one of those things I signed up for ages ago... not that I really believe in such things.. coz I tend to read it a day or two too late.. but then when I reflect back.. it kinda rings true...

So this is today's horoscope..... and I'm wondering... should I? As the saying goes.. "Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda..."

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Talking about your feelings to an intimate friend or lover is not the easiest thing in the world for you Goats, but it's important that you bring your intentions up to the surface. There's no room now for calculated thinking. You cannot just say something in order to get a specific response. Just be in the moment and express your heart.
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Trouble is... I've done so in the past with very depressing results.. so the thought of 'expressing my heart' I'm wary... and at the end of it all.. what do I really want?

Baaahhhhh if the feeling is mutual sooner or later... it'll all surface... hahahah... and I'm content with the attention I'm getting... gonna have to decide on one soon though... time is catching up with me :) hahahahahahaha

6 months from today.. I'll be turning 30.. and I've decided on a RETRO CRAZE PARTY!! Don't ask!

Emote ::: Me

Right now I am...
Frustrated
Tired
Trying to be patient
Scared
Anxious
Yet Perservering

8 days more to Cambodia - Kompong Som, Russian Market, Happy Herb Pizza, $5 Massages, Monkey Boy Rathana, Cheeky Monkey Thy, Good food & Cheap drinks. Maybe I will run away there and mail back my souvenirs.

AARRGGGHHHHHHH still frustrated!

At least I'm taking a break.. a real 2 week break to get away from it all and sort out my thoughts.. where my so called social/love/work life is concerned.. not some 2D/3N getaway to bintan or sentosa but a real break. Though for me I think a 3 month sabbatical to backpack around Europe or US is more like a break for me. But alas... I'm saving up for my own place, rent or otherwise.

I just wish some people would stop talking behind my back and others would open up to me and Step Up!. But C'est La Vie!

Talk is cheap...

You know sometimes,
you think you know somebody,
but actually you don't really.
I've been disillusioned before
and one would think i'd have learnt my lesson?
But well, I guess,
it's the same old story for me,
and it'll be that way for the rest of my life...
and that's an eternity.

An eternity of hopes and dreams,
that will eventually fade.
What I have to do now I know I'll do it.
To hell what everybody else thinks.
Only I know and can make sure
that I'll do what I set out to do.

Talk is cheap,
actions speak louder than words.
I'm tired of always making the moves.
About time somebody else does.
talk is cheap.. really cheap.
Action does a whole lot better

Step up to the plate if you dare,
coz if you don't well it's not my loss.
Talk...talk... talk...
it's real cheap
and I'm tired of the games.
So there I said it.

If you know better,
you'd start acting already.
Grow up.. be that man you say you are.
No more talk.
Action speaks louder than words.

I wish you could be the one
But only time will tell,
Till then, I will just wait and see
If what I felt is truly meant to be...

And we'll talk... talk talk talk...
Talk is cheap.. and only
Action speaks louder than words

Besides.. I can't & won't wait an eternity
But if there is some action from your side,
Maybe, then, we'll find happiness
Coz by your side, thru it all
I'll be there.. and baby
It ain't just talk..
Coz I'm all about the action!

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One would think this could be lyrics to a song... hahah.. well.. let's see if I can find the melody to turn it into one... never figured myself as a songwriter or a poet.. but sometimes, when i put pen to paper or in the virutal world, thoughts to blog... sometimes, I do surprise myself with the shit that comes out! I don't mean this literally... but what I just typed earlier and added on.. I think it's damn good if I say so myself!

A Rare Opportunity.. I think not!

Interesting what the stars say for me today... haha let's see shall we???

You have a rare opportunity to push through any subconscious fears that have been holding you back. This is a great time to trust your feelings, even if they seem erratic. Saying what you think can surely stir up the status quo and maybe even temporarily destabilize things. The work will be worth it; once you have the truth on the table, relationships will be healthier than ever.

OH...Friday was a blast! My sister decided to party her birthday away at The Pump Room with friends.. and I was invited.. haha... but it was a blast... from the past to the present! We finally gave up when the trashy dance songs came on.. by then it was 2am... so good time to go home...

Tomorro's Monday.. I'm off.. for some true R&R resort style with Bevvy! whooppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Somebody Shoot Me Please!!!

aarrrgghhhh... again... again... I saw HIM again today... and I was too damn shy to do anything about it! This time.. he was actually on the same train as me... getting off at Bugis... and lo & behold... he's walking right behind me.... all the way to Bencoolen.. where he went and bought lunch I think... and i paced myself.. thought that as I was buying a drink from the same shop, i'd casually say 'oh hi.. Howard right? it's me.. gerrid.. we chat on moblog..' BUT i couldn't... dammit!

Somebody just shoot me... put me out of my misery... with my kinda luck in meeting guys, dating, relationships yada yada yada.... it's best to just put me down!

Or maybe I will just go become a nun.... celibacy... woo hoo!

Ya rite... me?? celibate??? RIGHT! hahaha...

Btw... I am a Good Catholic Eurasian Girl! For Real!

My Single's 'Love' Horoscope for Fri 2nd Feb....

Being single may suit you in singular ways at the moment. You've got enough demands on your time and plenty of fun to keep you busy without the hassle of a relationship. Here's to your independent spirit!

Rawk On!!!!!!!